Something strucked me....~real hard

I am ashamed that I have been away from God for quite a long time even though I am working in a Christian organization.  What an irony!

That 66 unique books compiled into one blue book of mine has been left untouched on the shelf for at least 6 months.  The "Daily Bread" that I received  via email everyday is chucked into a specific folder without even reading it.  My excuse - I will read it someday when I am free - but when?  My husband and I no longer find time to practise worship songs since we do not have to lead worship in cell group anymore.  Transition, the only comforting yet self deceptive word that could explain the big change.  It has become a true fact that both of us have grown detached spiritually.  If our matters did not seem bad enough, the unanswered prayer would have worsened it.  It was exasperating to a point that my husband gave up on praying altogether.

Over  the last weekend, I shelved aside my academic books temporary to make way for the smallest book I had ever borrowed from my colleague, "The Prayer of Jabez". I thought, "This book is so small, I will be able to finish reading within one hour." I was wrong.  It took me three hours to digest it, even tripled the time I spent on a single chapter of my textbook.  I was totally blown away by the message that God had put in me through this book.  The sense of guilt overwhelmed my being with the simple fact that I did not put true faith and trust in God.  

Although the inner revolution had yet to be reconciled with Him, I started praying the Jabez prayer everyday.  Unlike what I had been asking God specifically for the last 7 months without an answer, I surrendered myself to God through the Jabez's prayer this time.   I have no idea what God wants to do with me or wants to give me but I know something different will evolve from here. 

For something miraculous to happen, I must first examine whether I am doing my quiet time and whether I am right with God.  However, many a times, I fall short of that Christ-like standard.  Writing this blog today embarks a new journey of my life.  I must set time for God, just like I did for my academic books.  I want to be closer to Him. 

It is TIME to read the unread daily bread and the bible rigourously, starting from today.